i do need a certain degree of privacy.. mayb it's too much

nowadays i do realise dat how much i can share is really minimal.. as in mi emotional activities n all... it takes alotta courage to say everything out..
sumtimes dere r certain things u haf always wanted to say to a person yet u always lacked the courage to say..
everytime i see coach.. n i tok to him.. n i hear him sigh.. i feel like patting his shoulder n tell him the team noes how much he's doing for us... n he's not alone.. n we'll promise to do our bes for the team...
yet i haf really nver said dat out.. n u noe everytime wen dat person walk away frm u liddat.. dat unexplainable sinking feelings tugs at ur heartstrings

i dont noe many pple.. cos dere r certain pple i see everyday dat i jus refuse to tok to or even greet becos i jus wna live in the little world i haf wif dat small social circle... pple r always telling mi dat im dao n sumtimes i may even look veri pai...
n i always tot it dint matter dat much how much pple hu dint noe me looked at me... but after all..
aft a recent spate of events.. u realise more n more pple r actly looking at u.. dey haf their impressions and expectations of u... sumtimes pple jus wna noe u better..
dey tok to u... try to noe u.. but u seem cold n unfrenly.. n i ask miself.. issit dat difficult jus to put up a frnt for dat little while.. surely a smile wont hurt right?

i wan to but i dno how to... sumtimes i succeed much to my relief.. n aiya.. u jus feel damn plastic at dat few moments u noe..
n i dont like it..


i wished i was less impulsive rash frank straightforward untactful judgamental critical cynical emotional paranoid n the list goes on n on...
i wna thank dose hu haf stayed by mi side tolerating wif the long list of bad points i haf seriously..
for now.. i needa learn to b less YE MAN...
my ye man-ness been getting on my nerves n i wished i cld b more u noe understanding n virtuous....


i feel dat hu purposely like to use super small fonts aint very smart... cos basically by using small identifiable fonts.. pple will b even more tempted to noe wad u're writing n dat contradicts the whole point of using such fonts...

i tink smarter pple wld noe how to use a font colour dat camouflages veri well wif their blog skin background or disable the highlight function of their HTML...

unless u're purposely drawing pple's attnetion to wad u gotta say lah.. =PP